Rain

ESPANA WC 2010

2010-07-12T18:04:00.002+08:00

(Y)!

(l)

2010-07-11T10:34:00.003+08:00

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2010-07-10T10:50:00.001+08:00

(L)

2010-07-05T03:01:00.001+08:00

I've decided that I'm not worthy of a celebration, this has been the least productive weekend ever! By the end of tomorrow, I must be able to say that over the weekend, I've:

1. finished all my physics homework because I have a wunderful learning attitude...

2. studied bio and memorized all related shizzle

3. memorized baozhang's format + hao ci jia ju

4. completed ss proposal

5. complete chem pt

Mhm.

Isn't it strange how we spend such a good number of weeks complaining how we are not getting lessons and that content is boring/dry, and then, when exams call, master and memorize and be able to regurgitate (or okay, apply...) the syllabus in a short span of hours?

Glorious youth day

2010-07-04T22:13:00.004+08:00

S'mores?

Tomorrow, if I rise on time, I shall celebrate my youth by watching the sunrise, having pancakes for breakfast and studying with my favourite duo. :)

Pre-exams um procrastination

2010-06-29T22:19:00.003+08:00

30h a week. My to-read/to-watch/to-buy list has multiplied (credit goes to pre-exams procrastination). I shortchange myself every time we have a couple of papers in a day, one of them being math because math automatically assumes top most priority. I miss the days when I excelled excelled in math, gonna make it happen. Lastly, ping! just so you know, glad to have you okaaai goodnight (l).

Bad romance

2010-06-27T20:21:00.009+08:00

:)

2010-06-27T19:28:00.003+08:00

A weekend (even a pre three papers weekend) spent with maria, sarah, yingxin, ernest, nick and hokkaido boy is always a weekend well spent. With the best company, silence is never awkward. (l)

Division

2010-06-24T11:12:00.000+08:00

Should not have slept thru meoisis/miteosis lessons haha.

AE-1

2010-06-23T13:52:00.001+08:00

Something about film.

326 am

2010-06-22T03:23:00.002+08:00

My body clock is messed up
I am insanely hungry and I am not sure why
Ive forgotten many things school-related damn x hundred folds
Determined to read all my globalization articles before the real tuesday opens
Uploading USA photos tonight :)

2010-06-21T15:52:00.002+08:00

I said a prayer in the last 15 min of my math paper, and managed to solve it.
After half hour of thinking and panicking before praying.

Haha you know, I said this four years ago. I've never really learnt.

9

2010-06-21T02:15:00.002+08:00

GOT THE TEXT MESSAGE :) this i miss!!! :)

2010-06-20T17:03:00.000+08:00

♥!

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2010-06-20T14:07:00.002+08:00

America is beautiful, isn't it? (l) I miss that place, the best two weeks for sure.

This I promise you and norah jones on replay hmm chi math ss today damn.

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2010-06-20T12:18:00.001+08:00

I miss the days when I had endless of good things to talk about.

2010-06-20T01:53:00.002+08:00

Adium, class hoodie, cookies. (l)

Saturday mornings

2010-06-19T09:13:00.002+08:00

I slept for four hours and that's all I can manage haha I've got to face reality soon. I hate to say this but I'm gonna have to face another few weeks similar to May again. May was a terrible, horrible month. :(

I miss Nine!!!!!! (l)

USA ♥

2010-06-18T17:40:00.002+08:00

Barely knowing the team to four in a bed with Derek Morgan and Spencer Reid (albeit on screen) till wee hours of the morning despite 10pm lights out; a 20min walk from the third floor to jblock to a 10min rush from the carpark to WELL; twice we submitted a report without knowing exactly the consequences haha so much hard work, so much screaming and hating and getting pissed, but too much fun and too much love. From I-got-you-because-I-went-to-the-toilet to the underdogs at nats to international champs. Talk about the best team. ♥

America was nothing short of phenomenal. I've got to waddle through the (2k) photographs first to tell the stories, numerous stories.

Jetlag ttm.

2010-06-04T00:04:00.004+08:00

I love you team ♥♥♥♥♥

Love my family (hey sis :))!

18th. (l)

ONE

2010-06-03T01:34:00.001+08:00

PRE TRIP JITTERZ.

Two

2010-06-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

TOMORROW AT ABOUT THIS TIME + - A FEW HOURS. All that we've been working for. ♥

Three

2010-06-01T00:29:00.001+08:00

I'm pampered shiz guess who is sipping apple juice w aloe vera bits now haha OKAY THREE MORE DAYS go trailblazers (l)

Four

2010-05-31T19:41:00.001+08:00

I need apple and aloe vera juice with aloe vera bits!!!

Five

2010-05-30T22:38:00.002+08:00

TODAY REMINDED ME OF 10 NOV 2010 AND HOW HARD I SHOULD BE WORKING.

It was also a v fun day though you two are the best. I'll wake up tomorrow! :)

Cmps (l) All good things come to an end? :(

Seven

2010-05-29T02:39:00.004+08:00

Mad glad that there is a month waiting ahead to straighten things out.

I love you zhiting and moose :)

Ten

2010-05-25T23:04:00.001+08:00

10 more days trailblazers haha we'd pull through we always do. :)

2010-05-24T20:26:00.002+08:00

Never hit the low grounds so bad before.

Right now, all I want is some cereal with milk. :)

Twelve

2010-05-23T11:54:00.003+08:00

Living is as challenging as living can get but the things I ought to be thankful for are still a plentiful (toast, omelette with cheese and iced milo). Circumstances will go. :)

2010-05-23T10:18:00.001+08:00

"Cause and Effect"

Charles Bukowski

The best often die by their own hand

Just to get away,

And those left behind

Can never quite understand

Why anybody

Would ever want to

Get away

From

Them

Thirteen

2010-05-22T11:32:00.005+08:00

(Source: chewonit.lj)

OM is flying tonight (L).

We're off in 13.

Wildflowers

2010-05-19T00:51:00.004+08:00

I've been youtubing song covers for the last hour and that makes me happy. :)

(Source: 1, 2)

Shrug

2010-05-17T23:10:00.004+08:00

Many times I've opened this tab and tried to concoct a little magic. Well, never rely on words to serve their functions.

You're the bridge that stands between so many newfound relationships. All these I treasure but you still matter, you do. / I love talking to you and I'm glad that we go deep enough - for me to tell you all that I did and for you to not judge. :) / You're such a gem for being there always, I love you so much. God will see you through (l) / Whatever your choice, you'd do well I know this (l) / Thanks for post orals haha gluttons much but (l) ttm! :) / I'm afraid of being overly dependent again. That you know, one day, we'd stop talking all of a sudden. That happens too often; I might not take it as well this time. / Sometimes I barely understand but stay strong alright (l)

I'm scared that I wouldn't be able to keep up physically.

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2010-05-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

I'm almost there. :)

:'(

2010-05-09T13:12:00.002+08:00

Zero satisfaction.

Best/worst day in a couple of hours.

Deny

2010-05-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

It's almost midnight and there is so much to do it's insane but I don't mind the rush. 9 is worth it haha first night in four? months! (l)

I thought of both turning points instantly, how I stood on flip-sides simultaneously. I wish that all the avoidance would stop and we'd talk about it instead of pretending that a period was inked; things would fix themselves. It happened once right?

Queen peace

2010-05-07T23:21:00.002+08:00

Kids (Y)

Anxiety

2010-05-06T21:59:00.004+08:00

Cramps are as bad as ulcers. :'(

I love fifteen and blaze (you're what I go to school for), my sis :) and the two i.d. photo kids. :)

I'm having so much fun downloading productivity apps (aka todo lists I love these!). :)

I can't write anymore. :'(

Ex-wife

2010-05-04T21:58:00.003+08:00

I'm in one of those im-nothing-inside-out-crisis but I'll keep going, keep going; let's just say things can't get worse? +1 scarlett johansson though and watch me tennis k till then :)

Chain rule

2010-04-25T17:40:00.003+08:00

However productive my day might have been, there is a never-ending list of Things To-Do.

:*) of the day: No longer a lost soul wrt differentiation.

:'(

2010-04-25T09:38:00.002+08:00

Life no circumstances are so damn hard sometimes and right now is one of those times :'(

Caged

2010-04-25T01:28:00.000+08:00

"After living in the dark for so long, a glimpse of the light can make you giddy. Strange thoughts come into your head and you better think'em. Has a special fate been calling you and you not listening? Is there a secret message right in front of you and you're not reading it? Is this your last, best chance? Are you gonna take it? Or are you going to the grave with unlived lives in your veins?"

(Y)

2010-04-23T21:57:00.001+08:00

"Sometimes your circumstances suck, but life doesn’t.”

The beast

2010-04-22T18:19:00.004+08:00

Beauty is so relative - ugly exists, ugly can be eternal but the beauty in ugliness is ugly isn't always ugly.

Green and checkered

2010-04-19T21:55:00.000+08:00

Really, really, really sleepy these days.

Addendum

2010-04-19T03:56:00.002+08:00

(lullina @ livejournal)

I rly should not be awake at this hour (4.19am) buttttt I have not done anything productive over the weekend. Well except cmps addendum. Thus that makes everything alright. Esp since the weekend was a whole lot of fun, oraaa - love my team to bits :)

V1V2

2010-04-17T00:25:00.002+08:00

PAST FEW HOURS I FELT LIKE I WAS A PRRRINNNCESSS love shiiiii's house. Any place with a treehouse = win. + we had the MOST AWESOME food and it wasn't anything fanciful, just plain old chinese dishes but they were so. delicious. Biggest accomplishment of the day = printing out the cutest monster colouring page ever. I'm so childish but who cares exams for the whole of sem1 (amg!!!) are over!!!!! (even if it means that I rly rly have to pull my socks up heh). I was initially planning on talking about all the money I wasted on cab fares today... and my difficulties with breathing and the fact that I am even more stressed because it means no more excuses to avoid cmps (officially Srs Bnz), & that we're dying!!!!!!! BUT NO EVERYTHING IS AN INSIGNIFICANT SPECK OF DUST NOW WHYYYYY?! because I found my eating animals book I was just complaining about losing it two hours ago to shi and bong before I even read it SO NOW THAT I FOUND IT MY LIFE IS AWESOME. HAPPIEST KID ALIVE. -> all these = result of hours of cmps.

Blastocyst

2010-04-15T20:35:00.002+08:00

Wenyuan @ 8:12: BLASTocyst
Wenyuan @ 8:12: DIE
Wenyuan @ 8:12: HAAHAHHAHAHAHA
Wenyuan @ 8:12: okay going off bai

She rly started the conversation in that manner heh, how ridiculous!

jieru @ 8:38: WHAT?
jieru @ 8:38: SHE JUST CLICKED ON YOU SAYING BLASTocyst
jieru @ 8:38: DIE
jieru @ 8:38: HAHAHAHAHAHA
jieru @ 8:38: okay going off bai
jieru @ 8:39: SHE'S THE WEIRDEST!!!

Who has got the best friends?!? :)~~~

Grey

2010-04-15T17:48:00.003+08:00

I saw nothing but this flash of bright, white light for a few seconds. It's scary how my living/dining room oversees the sea because slowly, I saw the dark clouds creep over the clear sky and separated it into two very distinct layers. That was a few minutes ago though, now black has engulfed all.

I like it better in my bedroom at times like this. Lightning is always beautiful. Today though, the white light keeps pounding on the window :( it's as if I'm the goat right now if you get the analogy.

Mom doesn't believe that India will take over China as the world's biggest power a few decades from now.

Okay gotta memorize more bio! As much as I hate having to absorb these facts in, bio teaches me to appreciate creation. I am very fearful of the magnitude of my body's functions.

Untitled

2010-04-15T12:08:00.003+08:00

I am so damn inadequate.

21%

2010-04-14T22:03:00.003+08:00

These days it's harder to breathe and I'm not talking in the figurative sense. What if things end just like that? Because no one is indispensable, I'm only afraid because I have all my eggs in one basket. If I ever let go please do tell the world.

Spring spring, molecules...

2010-04-14T15:15:00.005+08:00

Okay last night +10 mozzie bites into my life. Also had a horrid dream. Bought a snail (haha ikr...) from stall 10, attempted to consume it but it moved too quickly. Slime is a vivid image now. While watching animal planet, I thought of two new names for kids. I do this alot eh, but oh well memory has failed me, I don't remember them. That's alright, I still like Jace. :)

http://www.formspring.me/language: might as well! Boy the shiz you do during revision. It's basically a site where you ask questions (100% anonymous if you aren't signed in) which I answer and I like answering questions. :)

Laidback

2010-04-13T22:06:00.002+08:00

(Photo cred: jordandavidsmall)

What I'd give to go places.

For sale

2010-04-13T13:44:00.002+08:00

When we were younger, Jal and I used to draw on tissue paper, pretending they were the works of great artists, and then auctioned them off to each other. Good times :)

SRI

2010-04-12T19:45:00.006+08:00

Coalesced To grow together; fuse
Decrepit Weakened, worn out, impaired, or broken down by old age, illness, or hard use
Galvanized To arouse to awareness or action; spur
Ludicrous Laughable or hilarious because of obvious absurdity or incongruity
Nondescript Lacking distinctive qualities; having no individual character or form
Perfunctory Acting with indifference
Pernicious Tending to cause death or serious injury; deadly
Venerated To regard with respect, reverence, or heartfelt deference

I like words :)

The wee hours

2010-04-12T01:26:00.002+08:00

@1:26 I'm getting started :)
@1:26.5 HUNGRY.
@2:02 I'm getting started, for real.

@2:27 I love youtube... (aj & jenny!: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1KxUgD1dAkQ)

@6.18 As jieru would put it, GMH.

"I'm spick and span!"

2010-04-12T01:12:00.001+08:00

Rain @ 12:53: life is so beautiful why am i doing atcg!?!?! 12:53
jieru @ 12:54: haha YES why am i stuck here learning about how to not get pregnant!!!

When you're fifteen

2010-04-12T01:00:00.002+08:00

I love my family and just about everyone else in my life. 16 :)

Sleepover @ jieru's was the best. Weirding out throughout the night crashing at 4 heh sorry folks getting up at 1230 major song singing (i love the air band) be free partay sucking up cornflakes macs dumplings spilling of apple juice bugs more song singing AND MOST IMPORTANTLY THE BEST ADDENDUM EVER :) next friday~

The next two weeks are gonna be the nastiest ever. But we will live :)

PS: I did NOT heed your advice heh the back of The Best Notebook That Ever Lived now has two crocs stuck on it, looking good! :)

(Can you tell that I'm happy? :))

Clouds

2010-04-06T19:44:00.002+08:00

The sky is magnificent today.

When will I see your face again?

$6

2010-04-04T21:32:00.004+08:00

Good Friday & Easter. I'm thankful and I'd elaborate but words can only take you this distance. Things change people change and I've changed drastically no doubt but I still second how I felt a year ago.

Better is one day in Your courts
Better is one day in Your house
Better is one day in Your courts
Than thousands elsewhere

You are the everlasting God, the everlasting God

I've relaxed the later part of this week but I don't think I regret it. at all It's been awhile since my days meant this much more than purely schoolbased commitments. Thursday Rose at 7am in the morning and headed to east coast for three hours. I like alone. > Haircut > Zhiting's vball match > The Lovely Bones (haha this was ! 15 treated the cinema as if it were our classroom. Truly awesome, even tho I'd hate being any one of those poor beings who caught the same screening as we did) > 1.5 hours of decisionmaking hahaha > Swensen's > Sa's hooouse for sleepover: Quality conversations + macs @ 3.30am (l)(l)(l) pigs! Friday Family day :) And I heard the best news ever haha ever. Saturday Pasir ris park walks since 9am with cmps team CITRONELLA STILL IN MY BAG if you think lemongrass smells gd try CITRONELLA hahaha i love it love it love it. One of the greatest cmps takeaway although pc, is def. learning to appreciate nature so much more. Macs breakfast after, gotta love hotcakes :)! > Bus ride with Jieru (l) > Lunch with Ben haha sorry I'm the worst friend alive!!!!! > Church haha I hate ice... yay pris tho :)! > Burger fit for a king! Sunday Packed my room first thing in the morning heh I feel so good right now I need clean to work > Church > Fishball noodles :) and suckerrrs > Coffeebean sin 1 chinese zong he tian kongs > PHOTOBOOTH PICZZZ HAHAHA (l)! > Attempts to find a place to study > Marcus' place haha this was Awesome heh I love hzt and mfjj alottttt > Dinner @ ps with family. I've got to learn how to punctuate but oh well that was mostly for self reference such fruitful days I don't want to forget them just yet.

Love never fails

2010-04-03T22:42:00.004+08:00

I saw Dorothy 45 min ago and the last 45 min got me thinking. I really do miss you and Ian haha dear Ian quite terribly. I never realised it. I guess it's the sort of thing you don't think or rather, avoid thinking about until something hits you. For a duration, the two of you were the brightest lights that shone. Dor your friendship was a special one truly, one that I immensely wish circumstances couldn't have touched. I am sorry I never said bye.

¹ If I could speak all the languages of earth and of angels, but didn’t love others, I would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. ² If I had the gift of prophecy, and if I understood all of God’s secret plans and possessed all knowledge, and if I had such faith that I could move mountains, but didn’t love others, I would be nothing. ³ If I gave everything I have to the poor and even sacrificed my body, I could boast about it; but if I didn’t love others, I would have gained nothing.

⁴ Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud ⁵ or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. ⁶ It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. ⁷ Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.

⁸ Prophecy and speaking in unknown languages and special knowledge will become useless. But love will last forever! ⁹ Now our knowledge is partial and incomplete, and even the gift of prophecy reveals only part of the whole picture! ¹⁰ But when full understanding comes, these partial things will become useless.

¹¹ When I was a child, I spoke and thought and reasoned as a child. But when I grew up, I put away childish things. ¹² Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.

¹³ Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.

I've read 1 Corinthians 13 twice this week. The entire passage is majestic and it is such a timely reminder :). God is still good.

I misssss you haha.

Joy-givers

2010-03-31T23:12:00.004+08:00

A blend of sky and sea, bike and book. Sometimes it gets hard to separate you who falls under imagery (that calls its roots imagination, what little that one holds in these recurring erosions of realism anyway) from who you stands and steals. I forget.

Man involves too much of creativity, spontaneity, uniqueness for classification and labels to keep up. Stereotypes tend to be a thing of the past fast all of us have to subscribe to syncing ever so often. The acceleration of globalization has led to the decceleration of humanity. Do actors grow weary?

Can we ever build a community upon the bricks and cement of love again no not again, for once?

Incoherent.

3-2-1, Action!

2010-03-18T21:50:00.004+08:00

I'm not certain if march camp met the expectations of batchmates/juniors especially with the shoes of prev years it had to fill but regardless, on a personal level, it was my favourite. Well, while I don't think it measured up in terms of fun (haha few things can beat ruth and her crazy sticker reward shiz, movie titles etc. 08 <3), this camp saw me through the ups and downs of taking charge in an edgy, realistic manner. Every minus point, I could count on someone to make up for it; several things that went unspoken left me with overflowing gratitude and pure delight to make up for the next tug. I thank each and every one of you (esp cls, batch, patrol, zann). And to my kids esp (awesome!) haha, you are very very precious you know that? I don't think I come close to being the PL that Kellie was to me, but I find comfort knowing that you guys would be a Kellie to your little ones. Why is it that I always get the biggest share of the pie? :)

No matter how they see it, school is such a beauty. Every glance at a nametag, if you look deeper, unwinds chapters beyond imagination. I marvel at their abilities, the astounding talents, the bewildering capabilities. It is a wonder how I call myself a part of the same community. It is not a matter of competition any longer because you don't compare two things whose roots are of a different basis. Even I know that. I can't deny that more often that not I linger (out of place) but I only do so in the hopes of passing it on; I do believe that someone else out there is more deserving of my place. Yes, someone who prides herself in moulding change with the clay that I use for the creation of tiny worthless figurines. Yes, someone who can fathom all of these, or them for that matter. I'm afraid I cannot afford this.

I guess this is really as he said. Please don't ever tell another that we couldn't write an ending because I didn't permit you to read me; I opened the book, I did, I did. I turned the pages and I directed you right to the very words but you couldn't read those out loud. We explored different genres but to every fact or fantasy, your response was standand and so unsatisfactory. Forget about books then, you always hated them anyway. Speaking of which.

Somewhere along the way

2010-03-11T22:03:00.001+08:00

"four years ago he gave me butterflies. one night i grabbed his hand and the rest is history so to speak. we spent days and months and years learning everything about each other. we became best friends and fell in love simultaneously. it feels like we created a whole life together, a whole world that only the two of us understood. we loved each other wholeheartedly. we gave everything we could give. we became comfortable and we we're happy in our comfort. then somewhere along the way we became dependent and routine. and now our comfort almost makes me cringe. our world feels different. i am happy being next to him: taking a walk, watching a movie, sharing a meal. we still laugh and talk and get along well. but when he touches me i don't feel much. he tries to kiss me passionately but my lips feel nothing. in privacy i think about the way i used to feel next to him and i cry. i think of leaving him and the tears fall heavier. i don't want to ever not know him. his embrace is still warm as is his presence. but i no longer find myself wanting to sleep in his arms or share my every thought with him. i feel like i am slowly slipping away and he is grasping for me. i feel like i have little left to give. but i still spend all of my time with him. i still reach for his hand when we walk through the park. i still lay my head on his shoulder. i still hug him tightly when we say goodnight. he is my best friend and i love him too much to break his heart."

-caitlin (credit: lelove)

Zui hao de ban

2010-03-10T22:00:00.004+08:00

Fifteen!
Best.

HAPPY 85TH BIRTHDAY

2010-03-09T23:35:00.005+08:00

The class that
1. plucked a flower from we know where haha
2. stole congress' hot pink feedback paper to use as a card
3. decided that ft is 85 this year
4. sang many "happy birthday to you"s a. normally b. monkey version c. wedding version
5. wore "happy birthday mr a" in front & "love, 415" at the back
6. made signs that read "it is my 85th birthday!!!" & "wish me! ps. i love 415"
7. bought 10 boxes of pizzas + decorated a cake
8. wore party hats~~
9. gave ft the best birthday ever (this i am sure of!)
is the (mr a's 15 words here) class four fifteen haha i am truly deeply madly in love with you fifteen, irreplaceable.

Other things that i do not want to forget
1. ft's shirt haha srsly
2. WLs we got when we forced him to put signs on
3. "HAHA SUCKERS" - mr a

And in addition, tb bonding after haha pepper lunch for dinner, petting zoo, black belt <3

Life is good good good. :-)

Jewels

2010-03-03T19:13:00.002+08:00

Today, Jieru reminded me that at the end of the day, it's the jewels on our crowns that matter.

Haha thank you, you're still making my day! :-)

The good thing about D

2010-03-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

1. I'm glad I didn't allow today to be one of those days.
2. I don't care anymore.

Kungfu cartoons

2010-03-01T01:01:00.002+08:00

(1 AM. MY DAD IS ALONE IN THE LIVING ROOM AND YOU KNOW WHAT? HE IS TUNED IN TO DISNEY CHANNEL, ON HIS OWN ACCORD. AWESOME.)

"I think we spend too much time wondering why we’re not good enough. We spend too much time overanalyzing, over-thinking, and overreacting. We waste too much time putting ourselves down, so much that we don’t ever stop to see that well, we are good enough. You are good enough. Always remember that."

Where oh where

2010-03-01T00:35:00.003+08:00

I love grapes especially frozen grapes. Please try it, dump some grapes in your freezer for a few hours. No, it would not ruin your grapes you will be thanking me! :-) Also, I love night-time so much, but the more I stay up to take it in, the less rest I have. It's not a compromise on energy but face and hair yes I think it makes me bald more! What I do not love, however, is running away from Math. I've done almost every single thing just to avoid math. Where oh where has my love for math gone, oh where oh where can it be :-(

In other news, my phone is dead :-( :-( :-( 10-11pm was spent trying to fix it and screaming about it haha nokia has let me down. The worse part? I saved my contacts and messages whatnot in my phone not the card haha I am not clever.

Prolonged

2010-02-28T11:32:00.002+08:00

This week was very, very trying. It saw through the weaknesses of several, myself included. But His strength is made perfect in our weakness yeah? Despite the agonies and disapointments, I was in some sense forever on the receiving end; issues after issues just held blessings in store. In the past seven days, honesty and a lot of love did made things just about fine.

Something about worship really, really gets me.

Passion

2010-02-25T00:32:00.004+08:00

Isn't the disparity between my emotions now and an hour ago such an irony? I'll treasure you more. :)

Trail su blazers

2010-02-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

DONTCHA WISH YOUR PROJECT WAS
TRAIL! BLA! ZERS!

Lackluster

2010-02-21T15:49:00.006+08:00

I HAD THE WATCH WITH CHUCK & KIM!

I dreamt last night. I only hold snippets now but it was 2010's most bizzare yet obsecure one. I wish I could piece the puzzle though.

Stop and look around, this life is pretty amazing.

The only light

2010-02-21T03:08:00.007+08:00

American Beauty "...it’s hard to stay mad, when there’s so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m seeing it all at once, and it’s too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that’s about to burst. And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can’t feel anything but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life. You have no idea what I’m talking about, I’m sure. But don’t worry, you will someday."

You are not alone. Say it all to somebody, anybody.

Cmps is really so much more than rs, cmps has my heart.

All I need is You

2010-02-17T23:22:00.001+08:00

All I need is You.

Cast your worries

2010-02-10T22:05:00.007+08:00

A moment ago, I weighed my commitments mentally. I wanted to worry about the workload so that the stress would keep me grounded but simultaneously, something's echoing that it's not my strength, at all.

I'm sorry I couldn't bring myself to say a word. I'm glad she's there, she'd make up for all that I failed to be.

I love the night, when nobody else is awake. That's when I call the stars my own.

Trigo

2010-02-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

I want my math drive back : (

Seaview

2010-02-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

They study it intently and nothing distracts them, for they are ready to dedicate.

Right inside

2010-02-07T22:25:00.003+08:00

I love how there's comfort in our silence.

Thanks for brightening up the morning - early afternoon : )

I'm going to right this week.

Philippians 2:14-15 Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe.

Matthew 5:46-47 If you love those who love you, what reward will you get? Are not even the tax collectors doing that? And if you greet only your brothers, what are you doing more than others? Do not even pagans do that?

Genesis

2010-02-07T13:40:00.004+08:00

Delicate hands, an ingenious mind and timeless love.

必胜

2010-02-05T19:50:00.003+08:00

Bulk of the day in school went towards selling NFN tickets. I am very very impressed and touched by the generosity of rg (esp juniors, I like the sec1s!) : ) Not many things beat compassion.

I'm gonna miss meals under the far east escalator.

Esther, Jieru and I went to Daiso, initially hoping to stumble upon suitable gifts for Vday BUT DID WE GET ANYTHING NO WE DIDNT we bought a whole lot of cute but not practical stuff instead! It's the 2 dollars mindset I tell you. It works wonders. Things we got include a cup, a rubbish bin, boxes, clips, pencils etc hehehe. Fridays are really splurge days :)/:( (artbox, remember esther? :B)

I WANT AN AWESOME GET WILD! CAMP SHIRT HOORAY : )

It's 8 already?!?

必胜.

Evolving planet exhibit

2010-02-04T00:41:00.001+08:00

Museums are fascinating.

Panorama

2010-02-02T19:37:00.004+08:00

HOW NOT TO LOVE SCHOOL?

Rafffffles

2010-02-01T22:00:00.007+08:00

I do love rg. I'll be embracing us.

I CANNOT WAIT TO SEE TREEYER HAHA : ) : ) : ) i vaguely remember drawing a roach and Shakespeare on your farewell card!

(Look at the moon :0)

14 blades

2010-01-31T18:08:00.002+08:00

Hope is a fortune.

Your love is amazing

2010-01-31T12:41:00.003+08:00

I'd love to return to the purest, rawest form of humanity. Unlikely, though.

Untitled

2010-01-31T11:55:00.003+08:00

Somehow, even though it's weighing me down, I find satisfaction in this vulnerability. They are all right, how else can I look unto You except in awe and wonderment.

There must be more than this.

Elliot moose

2010-01-31T10:43:00.004+08:00

PODDY QIAN SPELLWORD :-) we're singing this next week!

P

2010-01-30T22:24:00.004+08:00

I love saturdays, praise and worship and liz poddy (!) rach :)
I love you too zhiting. I'll remember what you said at 1039pm :)

What I feel when you're around is a total stranger.

It's really all in the little things, thanks for holding on when you sensed the slight unhappiness.

The very thing that has redefined my life is taking away what used to mean the most to me. Both of which are so dear to me and I know for certain that I cannot cannot cannot afford to lose either one. I guess I've invested a good amount of time and effort into the former but it doesn't mean that the latter is less important to me honestly. It hurts because while I was tearing down barriers to get to the heart of it all, higher and steadier ones were built around those that I relied heavily upon, my foundation. I feel it too, the distance. In fact, you are probably more at ease with _ now. I've been losing too many too quickly. :'(

xx_xx

2010-01-29T18:20:00.003+08:00

I READ MY FIRST BLOG EVER HAHA BRB DYING.

TGIF

2010-01-29T18:01:00.003+08:00

(Cred: lullina @ lj)

TGIF :) Week 4 was good I think.

+ 1000 Class cell <3 How great is our God :)
+ 1 WE THOUGHT OF ANOTHER BOOMZ CLASS DECO IDEA HEHE.
+ 1 Best lunch this week @ Soup Spoon! Redeemed a grande soup + drink = virtually free lunch, although I spent all my money at Artbox later BUT NEVERMIND WORTH IT :)
+ 1 Fell asleep in the bus, missed my stop (by like 4 stops haha) BUT got to walk all the way home. I love long walks.
+ 1 Had my first sticky in 3 whole days.
+ 1 Mom is in a WUNDERFUL mood, cleared my room for me :)

Life is good yeah? Back to homework heh.

Elves etc etc etc in Wonderland

2010-01-28T20:01:00.004+08:00

MAD RAD CLASS DECO~

I really really really love fifteen hahaha. I used to look forward to school everyday for 15 oorah BUT NOW IT'S 15 OORAH + ELVES FAIRIES AND ALICE IN SECRET GARDEN WONDERLAND :- )

School has been Tiring but we're adjusting I guess. At least there are lessons to look forward to like BIOLOGY haha funny x10000 and PEPEPEPEPEPPE I love (all girls) soccer!

FROM THIS DAY ON I'M UP-ING MY CMPS INVOLVEMENT LEVEL TTM haha we actually braced ourselves for bad bad scolding but no it was actually very inspiring and encouraging. TBVH I can say I see the importance of kids <-> nature : )

Black cancels

2010-01-26T22:59:00.005+08:00

We're from Different worlds.

Slight push

2010-01-25T23:07:00.005+08:00

Faith without action is dead.

The media's authority

2010-01-24T10:41:00.007+08:00

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P.S. Still drowning in homework, DESPITE NOT PROCRASTINATING.
P.P.S. I miss the SGCC days. Cookies & cream milkshake = good times.

Mini zoo

2010-01-23T12:52:00.004+08:00

Term 1 Week 3

2010-01-22T21:51:00.012+08:00

Homework piling on me = one eyed monster crushing buildings NO JOKE K.

I like talking over meals :)

Week 3

2010-01-18T22:26:00.007+08:00

I love/hate school so badly it's crazy!!!!! It's only week 3 I hope this is as much homework as sec4s get (DREAM ON) and I'm not even working on CmPS nor SL NOT TO MENTION 2 CCAS! I'll manage tho I ALWAYS DO HAHA THINK POSITIVE anyway, to several different people maybe you're one of them heh. 1. I hope you remember what you told me at the end of last year it's probably none of my bzn but please stay away from that vicious cycle alright you're too good for any of that atm anyway. 2. I'm not saying anything not because I don't want to okay I do very badly except that I'm not sure how to go about doing it because I always end up killing everything. I ask too much but please do it again :( 3. Haha you know I always feel that every +/- point you mention is directed to me it's probably over-sensitivity but I can't help it. Despite all these tho you're still the person I'd like to learn how to appreciate better/be there for this year honest. 4. Do you feel that things have changed??? Undo please :( 5. Are we still friends!!! D: 6. I really admire you stay strong :) 7. I'M THANKFUL FOR YOU :) thx for taking all my shizzle haha.

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WHY ARE MONDAYS SO DIFFICULT. I decided that videos are NOT GOOD TEACHING AIDS i sleep during vids can't help it you see a. vid from 20 years ago srsly haha update!!! b. aircon c. dark room. d. comfy jacket BTW FOUND MY PUMA JACKET HAHA LUV OF MY LIFE i lost and found this thrice! SO HOW TO NOT SLEEP :) Today after school, I procrastinated less hooray. I also went to Made With Love I miss this shop so bad haha got to love pretty paper! :) You know I can never bare to use all my paper I have the sweetest collection however I fear that my handwriting would ruin everything.

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Everyone THIS IS WHAT IS GETTING ME THROUGH THE WEEK please eat:

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Precious Lord
Reveal Your heart to me

- God of Wonders

Before it is irreversable

2010-01-17T15:18:00.004+08:00

Week 2 has been so so so exhausting yet still somewhat amazing. Banner painting is killing me!!! I dislike it so much it's so tiring and so tough, +1 for CADs and OMers haha. Good thing there was Jieru's, it kept me sane :) I love poker and tall cakes! Then there was CmPS (esp AHF yesterday) and ONE chapter so many things so many dreams but time always limits. I love community involvement and social work related matters they shake you and wake you up. Why does profit and material matter so much why is this world one that is money driven? Did you know that 1/6 of the world (that equals a billion people) do not have enough food everyday? In our place on this earth, it is too common to see half a plate of food left after a meal. That means even our crows have so much more to eat. The sky is our roof we all reside in the same house we are such a fortunate lot why can't we give a little more why is it so difficult myself included this I know imagine if I bought one less shirt and gave that money to someone else in need I bet 1 shirt's value per month for a year would be close enough to funding someone's education for a year. I truly truly believe that this is the generation that can bring change, if only we were just a little bit more human. Stop saying that this is reality. :(

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If 10 A1 girl studies 3 hours a day, so can I! So will I.

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Something about the way your hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I'll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it

- Your Body is a Wonderland by John Mayer